Bonnie’s Pond

Sometimes its easy to forget why we do the work we do, in fact at times when people ask me why I teach yoga I want to answer its just something that I fell into or I do its because its what I know, its what I’m good at or even its how I roll.

But thats not true

I do what I do for those moments when people truly uncurl let go and unfold in my presence. Some realise that as a yoga teacher I get an intimate glimps into their sole …. some students are yet to work this out.
I have had a number of people who lie in relaxation with tears falling down their cheeks because they feel safe enough with me to let whats bothering them bubble to the surface, they can’t stop it anymore than they can stop breathing its a physical reaction often with out an explanation but then why would they want to stop it, they know I notice, they know I’m not going to say anything I hold it I keep it I carry it and I will never ever forget it them or the moment.

Have you ever lied next to someone you loved and listened to them breath while they sleep, listened to them as they stop breathing, hyperventalate or give a soft moan probably due to a very good dream? they are open and vanerable in that moment, in that moment you see the real them uncovered unfolded and uncurled they have let all gards and defences down and in those moments you love them, unconditionally and without reservation in those moments you see the real them for better or worse.

I am told I hold grudges, at first this used to bother me but now I reaslise its something more than holding grudges what I hold is peoples light and peoples shaddows. I know the best and the worst of people and often I let that persons up and downs wash over me like waves their ups and downs are not “them” and what I see is more than the sum of their parts. I don’t usually (despite what people say) try to fix people I try to understand them. To have at lest one other person who understands and carrys with them the best and the worst of you is to never be alone and to live imortally.

In my job I see the the very best and the very worst of human nautre I have had shoes thrown at me and I have had arms thrown around my neck but shareing those moments with people is what I call unconditional love and its in these moments that I know I could never do or be anything other than a yoga teacher I get as a yoga teacher the chance to unconditially love on a dayly basis.

Unconditional love is seeing people for what they relly are, not for what they present them selves to be. What people really are doesn’t change unconditional love doesn’t change you don’t have to be “in love with someone or to be sleeping with someone to unconditionally love them. In fact I don’t think unconditional love has very much to do with the other person at all unconditional love comes from the person giving the unconditional love.