Bonnie’s Pond

I had probably the worst dream I have ever had last night, the worst because of the content or because it was so vividly real I’m not sure but it was bad.

It started with me and a group of my friends on holidays, I left the room in which we were staying to make the big journy down all the stairs and across the grounds to the toliet block as I had to go to the toilet. The toilets were public toilets and were not wonderfully clean but were not to bad ither. I sat down on one of the toilets (something I do not normaly do) and something weir happened I lost a whole heap of time It was kinda like I had passed out but stayed awakeat the same time.

I knew somehow more time had passed than I had thought though I am not sure how I knew this I had nothing to mesure time with I had stopped thinking, stopped hearing and stopped seeing and stopped moveing. At this point I realised that part of my hearing was comming back I could hear people moveing in and out of the place but things were still black and I couldn’t move, somehow I had gotten my self into a twisted bent up angle and I couldn’t do anything about it. I stayed there and listened and then some of my sight returned, once my site returned I was able to start working and convincing my body to reach up towards the door as at lest now I could see it.

My main thought was to at lest get out where people could see me and get help but my whole body was wracked in pain. It took me ages to get out but I finaly did and as I stumbled into the main section I caught a glimps of myself in the mirror I had a great big bump over my left eye and another one over the left hand corner of my mouth it looked almost as if someone had hit me. At this point I still hadn’t regained my ability to speak and I was becomming increasingly aware of the fact that I was haveing trouble breathing I was not sure if it was a muscle control thing or a brain thing.

Two girls entered the room as I hit the grownd, I lay there trying to get the word help or ambulence out while they just looked at me I must have finally got one of the words out because the blond one turned to me and said “I know your type, you did this to your self, I’m not helping you” and walked off. I was improving, some of my movement was getting better and voice was slowly returning and it had alot to do with my concentration the more I concentrated and stayed calm the more I could control my body. The breathing was getting incresingly hard and as I would loose concentration or if I would get stressed out my whole throat would begin to close up.

It sounds simple to stay calm and focused but try staying calm when you throat is closing up, my throat would close up I would stress out because I thought I was dieing and I couldn’t breathe and it would close up a little more. I had managed to get my self along the floor and just outside the toilet block and I had managed to get my phone out but I could not for the life of me dial the number I was trying to call thao and it was like being drunk and trying to ring someone I kept pressing the wrong buttons I just could not get my brain or my body around it.

I must have been there for ages and ages trying to get it working and every time someone would pass I would ask for their help but they all kept walking on even said to me “don’t bother thao he has to go to work in half an hour” I really wanted to call Thao but I couldn’t so I gave up and called lachlan instead. I didn’t want to call lachlan but in the end I gave up cause I knew his number of by heat it was so much easyer to dial.

Beth picked up Lachlans phone and I started to tell her the problem and that I needed and ambulence when my throat closed up again and I couldn’t breath. I was panicing again because beth wasn’t listening and though she said she understood I could tell she just wasn’t going to call the ambulence. The feeling of my throat was so vivid I could feel the muscles tighten my painic as I slowly started to back out.

At this point I woke up my throat was killing my it was like I had been punched in the throat and it took me a good hour to get my breathing back to normal and god knows how long again to get back to sleep.